No One’s Angel is a tale about abuse, violence, abandonment and learning to let go of the past and to acknowledge your own worth.
Angel aka Tess and Arion aka Axel met years ago playing an online game and have become close. After disappearing on him for a while, Angel suddenly shows up on his doorstep. Soaked to the bone, scared and broken. At least this is how she feels. She escaped an abusive relationship that had her live in terror and fear. Although now safe in Arion’s place, she can’t let go of the those feelings and little things send her over the edge. Add to that the guilt she feels for having disappeared on him before and the guilt of risking his and her family’s safety and you have a girl that is so high-strung that she is always hovering on the edge, ready to topple over.
Arion on the other hand has never gotten over the fact that Angel disappeared on him, so having her back he never wants to let her go again. Aware, that she comes with enough baggage to make LAX baggage claim break down and with demons he isn’t sure how to fight for her, he tries to not only make her feel at home but show her that she is the only thing he wants in his life. Not hiding his feelings or the damage she has done to him when she left, he is 100% honest with her or so we think.
Step by step the two get closer to each other and Angel hopes she can keep the demons at bay but the smallest gesture, word or move on Arion’s part and she falls apart, her panic spiralling out of control.
It doesn’t help that Arion is so scared of losing her again, he barely lets her breathe. When they finally seem to be true to their feelings for each other, trust becomes an issue that again stands in their way and threatens to tear them apart. Will they be able to get over this or will it break them apart again – this time for good?
I loved how this book was written, the giving out of information in perfect measures – enough to know something is going on, but not too much so not to spoil the rest of the story. Already the fact that the book is about gamers had won my heart. It is such a big part of our culture these days and it is great to see it represented in New Adult books as well.
Ms Walker has done a most perfect job of describing the effects that domestic violence and abuse have on a person. The fear that keeps them bound to the abusive partner, the way the fear blocks logical thinking and acting, the paranoia that stays with them even after leaving the abusive relationship. The fact that Angel was fine in one minute, and freaking out in another because of something Arion said, that was meant in an innocent way but scared the living hell out of her. The way she could get excited from his touch, just to spiral into a panic attack a second later. It was realistic, it was honest and it was raw. I loved the fact that the fear stayed with her till the end. It might have been getting better, but she wasn’t just miraculously healed. She had to fight for feeling whole again and in the end, the only person that could heal her was herself – by standing up for herself and demanding what she knows is right for her. I felt bad for her, I felt her pain and fear. And the more I cheered her on when she finally started putting herself together from the broken pieces, when she stood up for herself and fought for herself.
Arion on the other hand had a few scars himself. Not as visible as Angel’s, yet they still had a big effect on his life. Fearing abandonment, he holds so tight onto Angel, that he is nearly suffocating her, not realizing that instead of making her feel closer he is pushing her away. Ms Kelly again shows very honestly and in a realistic fashion the way someone feels that has been abandoned before. Not knowing when to hold on and when to let go, when things get too much, Arion always feels like he is about to lose the one person he loves – making him act irrationally and erratically at times. I understood his pain, his fear and his need to be loved. It was easy to see why he went over the top sometimes not realizing that he is worth loving and staying with – even without the big gestures.
Kelly Walker definitely does those serious and dark topics justice. But the book is so much more than just angst and darkness. It is sweet and heart-warming. The feelings the characters have for each other, the sweet gestures towards one another and the bond that they share are beautiful and full of affection. The sexual tension and innuendos between Arion and Angel make the reading experience sizzling and electrifying. The sex scenes between them are not too explicit, but still hot and sexy. And the suspense is killing. Especially towards the end with the big showdown, I forgot to breathe at times.
The book is perfect and I loved every bit of it. Therefore it definitely gets 4.75 nerdy, courageous stars.